This is not my first failure but it was my first failure in this particular area of my life and I did not take it too well. The first emotion I felt was anger and resentment. After making so many sacrifices and asking so many persons to make sacrifices to accommodate my choice, I couldn't help but feel angry at my self. I was angry for not working hard enough . I then shifted my anger and I got angry at God for not being there for me....
After the anger subsided I felt like a loser....and this in turn led to me feeling sad. I decided in that moment to watch a movie on Netflix to cheer myself up because I did not want to go down Hysteria Lane. Netflix was kind enough to suggest Jane Eyre (It's quite creepy how smart Netflix can be sometimes). It is a book I enjoyed and seeing the words come to life, I guess, gave me the motivation I needed to brush my shoulders off and move on...
Failure is a natural part of life and it gives us an opportunity to go back to the drawing board and reflect. This situation has given me the motivation to hold my head even higher and continue my trod. I won't allow negative feelings or thoughts to drive me to give up because that in itself would be an even bigger failure.
"Just can't live that negative way...make way for the positive day!"
XOXO
